REVIEW | The Numinous Tarot Deck & Guidebook

When it comes to the messy business of personal liberation and growth, the tarot we choose can make a big difference.

Among shadowy decks that pull no punches, decks that are lighthearted and joyful, and still others that are dreamy, mystical and ethereal, there are a few rare and very special decks that take you by the hand, reassure you of your strengths, and firmly, lovingly hold space for your inner work.

Decks that are brimming with compassion and encouragement, decks that believe in you.

Decks that say: “Babe – you’re awesome. Do you know how awesome you are? Let me tell you. You are whole and you are complete. You are fabulous…and you are flawed. And, like everyone, you have stuff. Let’s talk about it – it’s okay, it’s natural, and it’s important for helping you grow. You’ve got this. And I’ve got your back.” (Ugh, I need that right now.)

Cedar McCloud’s Numinous Tarot is one of these very special decks.

It arrived in my life as I was taking baby steps into swirling mass of shadows and secrets, trying to find my way through, to discern what is mine and what is not, to find my way through a fog of socialisation, buried pain, fear and anger, to a place of authenticity and truth. It’s a journey towards personal liberation, fuelled by the determination to be a better ally, a more authentic activist, a person who creates change in each sphere of my life, personal and collective.

I am still on page one of this epic personal ‘novel’, still gathering the language and the tools I need to step forwards. I am taking baby steps. I am afraid and brave.

And I am realising that I cannot do it alone.

I have so far been bringing these shadows and secrets to the lap of the fearsome Crone. Her unwillingness to ‘make nice’ making me wince at times, but always bringing me closer to my truth. When the Numinous Tarot arrived last month, for a while I put its rainbows and glitter aside, eschewing its apparent positivity so as to stay with the Tarot of the Crone and her shadows.

Of course, this journey into my own darkness has grown more edgy, more vulnerable, more tender over time. Eventually, I asked the Crone for a break. I needed to come up for air.

It was at this point that I unwrapped the Numinous Tarot and finally delved in.

Oh, my heart! My raw and swollen heart.

Each time I pull a card, my eyes fill with tears. Where perhaps I meant only to grab a quick message on my way out the door, I find myself parking it on the sofa for a read of Cedar’s generous, heartfelt words, and a moment of quiet reflection. These images connect me to myself, to reality, to what I love and value and long for.

In these cards, I find the scrappy, DIY magic that I practice and always worried was ‘inferior’, not ‘proper’. Here I find the un-instagramable moments of true, raw beauty, the effort, the intention, the experimentation, the self-doubt and the acceptance, the solitude and the community, the shared language and the unconditional love. Everyone is a ‘they/their’. Here I find the folks that surround Little Red Tarot, the folks who hang out in my inbox and I in theirs, the folks I share a home with, the folks I reach out and connect with across the internet. Folks I love, folks I have yet to meet. All of us doing our work, all of us striving for revolution. We meet in this deck.

It is validating. It is affirming. It is supportive. It is real.

There is so much magic in the striving itself. So much magic in our collective and individual intentions to grow, to change the world through changing ourselves. So much magic in facing up to the complexities of who we are, all the ways we have been socialised to feel we are not enough, all the ways we are returning to ourselves and to each other, and reclaiming our personal and collective power. Like Cristy C Road’s NEXT WORLD TAROT, this is a deck for the revolution, a deck for the shifting. A partner in The Work.

Despite the colour, the light, the glitter that pulses through the veins of the Numinous Tarot, this not a deck without shadows. It’s not pretending that bad things don’t happen, or ‘lightwashing’ where it is darkness that holds the truth. It is more that, when we do face the tough stuff, it offers support and encouragement. I find it consistently brings me perspective, helping me to frame difficult experiences within a wider context, the context of movement and community, of folks who aren’t perfect, doing our best.

The goal of the Numinous Tarot is not just to uplift and empower, but to allow for vulnerability, mistakes, and flaws as well. We cannot be strong all the time. I spend the first 25 years of my life being “strong”, being the “family rock”, in a way that never allowed me to be hurt or to ask for help. I only found real healing when I allowed myself to be weak or scared, to be wrong, to not know the answers. These moments, as it turns out, pass. They do not last forever. The people who love and care about us (and there are such people) will be there when you reach out to them. The communities we create are so much more for us than the hyper-competitive, hyper-individualist message of capitalist American society.

Cedar McCloud, in the Numinous Tarot Guidebook

Along with the shadow, the support, the holding of space for the process of grief and growth, this deck is also imbued with a sense of really accessible celebration. It holds up the beauty of the DIY, the made-up, the moments and events that marginalised people make up for ourselves, that we create via an intuited idea of what joy might look like, when we give up trying to access the mainstream.

The Numinous Tarot is, first and foremost, a deck for our beloved queer family – for all of us. I feel like Cedar’s approach to these cards has been something like “how can I best strengthen and fortify our community, so we can do our work, examine our selves, our privileges and traumas, our pain and our love and our joy, so we can grow strong, so we can be better allies, so we can rise up together, no body left behind.” Or as Asali puts it (in her brilliant Tarot of the QTPOC series):

The art in this deck almost guarantees that you’ll see something of yourself reflected back in its cards, acting as gateways to a glorious magical queer imaginary. There is space in the magic for you in particular, this gorgeous deck sings out.

I see femme of center people, disabled people, trans people, black people, poor people, poly people, non-binary people, queer people, old people, young people – I see me, you, us; I see our community thriving and in command of our magic.

In the Numinous Tarot, and other decks that do this work, I see the reality of being able to create ourselves in beauty as self healing work – as Cedar did in their self-portrait as Queen of Tomes. How absolutely powerful is that?

Asali Earthwork

Yes, it is a deck for our queer family. And it is a deck for everybody. It is a deck that celebrates humanity and breaks down divisions. Come with love, with respect, with an open heart. You’ll find yourself here.

Like the NEXT WORLD TAROT (which emerged around the same time), this deck carries stories of immense resilience. Both decks have huge, huge hearts filled with fierce love; both decks carry powerful critiques of/answers to state violence, and cultural and systemic oppression. I don’t want to get into comparing the two decks – there’s simply no need! Both of these decks in their different ways bring us fuel and knowledge and strength to become the change we yearn to see. Where I feel that Cristy’s focus is often on community approaches to resistance and activism, and her deck has a tough fighting kinda spirit, Cedar repeatedly zooms in to explore the beating human heart that lives through every moment. In this way, the two decks make a wonderful pair.

One of my favourite elements of this deck-and-guidebook set is the ‘Fool’s journey’ offered in the intro. In all my days, I’ve never seen the Fool’s journey laid out so clearly and cleverly! I gasped when I read it, because I have tried so many times to string together this linear narrative, every time giving up with a shrug. Tarot offers a non-linear approach to storytelling, its twisting journeys are infinitely cyclical, spiralling, u-turning and leaping nonsequentially – and that’s what I love! AND, in the Numinous Tarot, Cedar has managed to tell a story of the Fool’s journey from blank canvas to enlightenment, moving through the major arcana cards in numerical order. (Honestly, this has been a little revelation!)

Structure, renaming, reclaiming

There are a few significant departures from the standard tarot structure (though tarot readers of all levels would quickly settle in to these revisions – this is not one of those decks that demands you ‘start over’, like the Wildwood or Dark Goddess tarot decks.) The four suits have been renamed: Pentacles are Tomes, Cups are Vials, Swords are Bells and Wands are Candles. The court or face cards have been freed from their traditional genders and hierarchy and and are now Dreamers (Pages), Explorers (Knights), Mystics (Kings) and Creators (Queens).

A number of major cards have also been renamed so that all are genderfluid. Following the Magician, we now have the Diviner (High Priestess), the Nurturer (Empress), the Founder (Emperor) and the Visionary (Hierophant). I especially appreciate that the Devil is now The Shadow – this feels so much more fitting, I’ve always tied myself in knots explaining the Devil to querents. Lastly, there is an additional card unique to this deck: The Numinous, which is so much about what I recognise as ‘being in the mystery’ and finding your flow.

Notes on whats’ included, card quality, etc.

I don’t want to get into ‘reviewing’ this deck – that doesn’t feel like the right way to share it – so here are a few brief notes on the actual meat and bones of it.

In terms of card quality, shufflability and so on, it is very well-made! The gloss-laminated cards shuffle beautifully – some may find them slippery – personally I like this super-smooth feeling (even if it does mean regularly dropping cards!) They are borderless, a very standard 12 x 7cm in size, so good for smaller hands. They have a bright gold edging that does not stick and that flashes pleasingly when you shuffle. In my experience, this feels like a deck that will age well, even with a lot of use. The card backs are a soft blue-and-pink watercolour

The generous softcover guidebook contains everything you need – even as a complete beginner – to dive in and begin your journey, with an introduction to the tarot and its structure, thoughts on how you might use it, and some spreads to try out, before moving on to a detailed description/interpretation of each card (two pages for the majors, one for the minors).

Collectors may note that it’s all presented in a nice, colourful box (which, ahem, I immediately ditched – I keep my working decks in bags and guidebooks on my shelf, and never keep those ‘keepsake boxes’. You do you, guys!)

There is so much more I could say about this deck, but (as with all decks, really,) it’s one to discover for yourself. I’m sharing my early-days impressions simply to shine more light onto this creation – I believe that it’s one that is especially relevant to Little Red Tarot readers. You know when you meet a new person and you instantly connect, you just know that your relationship is gonna be fierce, loving and consistently challenging – in the best possible way? That’s how I feel about the Numinous Tarot.

The heart of this deck is hope. I started it for myself but I finished it for all the other who have been led to believe that we don’t have a place in the world. We do. We may have to build this place ourselves, but we are worth the effort, the space, and the care of doing so. And I hope this deck helps you to feel that in your own heart.

Cedar McCloud

Further reading:

  • Read Asali’s interview with Cedar here: There is space in the magic.
  • Cedar is also a comic-book author! Check out their work at!

The Numinous Tarot is available in the Little Red Tarot Shop!

Following a sell-out first Kickstarter run, a second printing is now available!

Buy here

You can also get the Numinous Tarot – and other artworks – directly from Noel

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