Bull by horns – The Fool

What’s the one thing you’ve always wanted to do, but are afraid to try?

Everyone’s got one – maybe more than one. Even the most confident people have something tucked away which they can’t bring themselves to start. Could be as simple as joining a singing group, could be as big as a total change of career. Somehow, time keeps ticking by, and you just don’t quite manage to get on with it.

The Fool tarot card - Shadowscapes Tarot Stephanie Piu-Mun Law
The Fool, from the Shadowscapes Tarot, by Stephanie Pui-Mun Law

The Fool, from the Shadowscapes Tarot, by Stephanie Pui-Mun Law

Sometimes, the only thing to do is to put yourself in a situation where you simply can’t not go through with something.

Jump in the pond, then you’ll *have* to learn to swim. It’s The Fool’s approach, I think. She doesn’t know where she’s going or what lies ahead – and that doesn’t matter. The only thing she’s sure of is that the universe will support her.

I love Stephanie Piu-Mun Law’s illustration (above) of The Fool in the Shadowscapes Tarot. It’s just so liberating – this woman has utter faith in the word around her. There is an exchange of energy going on here. If she is prepared to take a risk, she will be supported. So she enters into the contract with an open mind and an open heart, ready to see what comes next.

Reading tarot at events was feeling that way to me.

It’s something I used to do, really loved, but haven’t done for ages. I knew I wanted to rebuild that part of my business, but I was scared. Then, in the way that you always get what you need in this little town, a friend asked me to do readings at an event at her beauty salon. Argh! Not the opportunity I’ve been waiting for, please god no! So my first instinct was to say ‘oh, no, I’m too rusty, I can’t possibly…’  …but it was far enough in the future that I felt I could say yes and nothing would ever really happen, would it?

So I said yes.

And Saturday afternoon there I was, realising that I couldn’t back out now. I felt nervous. It’s been so long! What if I drew complete blanks, what if nobody liked my readings, what if it was just really, really awkward? I wanted to flake out at the last minute, but I thought of The Fool and carried right on.

The Fool tarot card

I needn’t have worried. The group were in high spirits, excited to be having their cards read, encouraging and willing to engage with their readings. After the first few readings, I felt my old confidence coming back, and by the end of the evening I was buzzing.

Whilst I was happy to be able to offer guidance and insights to a lovely bunch of people, I’m pretty sure that the person who got the most out of the event was me. It taught me, for about the billionth time in my life, that if you want to give something a go, give it a go.

No-one is going to do it for you.

One comment

  1. Holly says:

    I’ve just begun the card a day course and am immersed in it, reading all I can find on the lrt site and your suggested links and the books that come with the Wildwood Tarot. I feel this deck chose me: I came across a picture of the Ancestor and there is something about her that made me long to follow. The first site that came up when I researched how to get the deck was Little Red Tarot (Prince always chimes in when I say/write these words) and your writing made me feel secure that I wasn’t being tricked (a big fear of mine). Also, along with secure ~ excited, encouraged, anticipatory, curious, safe. Good stuff.
    0. When I responded to the prompt ‘what jumps out for me … ‘ it was the dirty soles of their feet. I love this because this is an aspect of a Fool, a Wanderer that I can relate to though I am past middle-age and feel usually anything but able to be open to possibility and newness. I’ve traveled long and hard trying to escape that opportunity to step into whatever will truly carry me, so often turned away from the leap saying I would do it another time when there wasn’t [insert person, situation, need] demanding my attention. I wonder if I can now, and also am feeling what have I to lose? Only all that’s kept me from what I long for. Which at this point remains unnamed with so much being shoved aside for so long. But it is/they are still there … I feel we are tentatively reaching towards each other.
    The Magician/Shaman: commitment, action – I’ve avoided these and they feel frightening when I apply them to myself. In the service of others – sure. I see it is that scary aspect of ‘who am I really, what can I really do’ that I’ve never wanted to acknowledge because what if … there’s really nothing/no one there? Though I know this is not true of anyone I’ve ever met I still have that (secret) apprehension about myself. So I’ve set my intention, I’m committed to taking ongoing action on following this course, trusting that all the tools I need to discover what I need to know are at hand or will appear.
    Well, this is an exciting journey and I feel truly helped and encouraged as I take my beginning steps. You, your site, the community I sense are like sentinels lighting a path only I can walk and yet familiar to and loved by many.

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