I’ve been making some changes to the way I work lately.
After a strange summer of shifting emotions and a feeling that I’d lost myself somewhere along the way, and the unfamiliar experience of simply allowing those shifts to happen rather than leaping to articulate or capture them, September brought clarity, and a climax. In the way that early autumn always feels like a new year to me, I felt as though I’d figured something out and was ready to make the necessary changes.
It boils down to a change to the way that I work – and the things I consider ‘work’. This is something I’m writing about separately so I won’t ramble on here, but today, when I pulled the Nine of Pentacles as my daily card, I realised that I have choices. That, as a self-employed person, I can make decisions about how I work, to be able to experiment, to decide what my working day looks like and just what ‘work’ actually is, for me.
From the Wild Unknown Tarot
I truly love this card – it’s right up there with my absolute favourites. I love it because it’s grounded, earthy and real – it’s about physical comfort, being well-resourced, having what you need, feeling sustained…by the fruits of your own labour.
But more importantly, it’s about defining success in your own way.
Right now, I feel abundant, and I feel successful. I have what I need, a home, love, enough to eat, an income that’s gradually becoming sustainable. But I can also see changes I want to make. The Nine of Pentacles tells me it’s okay to make them.
I’ve always thought of the Nine of Pentacles as the ‘independent woman’ card, in that it embodies that cool feminist trope of a woman who doesn’t take any shit, does what the hell she likes, works hard on the things she’s passionate about, and as a result enjoys a feeling of self-reliance, abundance, fulfilment…all that fun stuff.
From the Anna K Tarot
As I’ve been making changes to my working day/week and reconsidering what I want this all to look like, I’ve found myself fretting about what people will think. What if it sounds like I’m not working enough? What if someone says I’m lazy? What if, shock horror, I free up time to myself to indulge in simple pleasures, while others are working hard?
The Nine of Pentacles tells me not to give a stuff what anyone else thinks. Right now, I know what’s best for me, and I’ll do this however I damn well please.