I wanted energy, excitement and joy. I got a reminder that I need to tie up some emotional loose ends before I dive into spring.
This tough, harsh king can be both judge and defendant at once.
Activity, activism, resistance and rebuilding - these things are not just about loud, bold, glamorous actions. They are also about conversation. Learning, listening, growing our ideas.
Looking back at my own personal 2016, and forwards to a more connected 2017.
Journeying, over and over, towards my own edge.
A resolution for vulnerability, which is necessarily a shared experience. Join me?
A framework for a ritual I created for saying goodbye to special friends, that you can adapt for your own ceremonies.
The questions are simple, yet crucial, each one prompting a deeper inquiry into the intersecting web of privilege and injustice that make up our individual lives, our communities, our societies.
It's easy, when you're alone with your own head a lot of the time, to forget what else is happening in your life. I flicked through my camera. Plenty, as it happens.
Life is never in limbo. As long as it is being lived, the journey progresses. Every moment, something new is learned. "No way out but through", my friend says of her own current struggle. It's true. It's good. It's okay.
An update. The calm after the storm, figuring out what's next. A card for truth, to point the way.
In how, three days after I’ve left, I feel nothing for you but a sort of deep, hopeless sadness and a soreness I will soothe in the sea and with love and with time and with loving my life.
I feel strong and brave looking at these cards.
For the past week, I've held tonight's full moon as a goal, a turning point, a moment when.
A moment when what? A decision? A declaration? A statement of intent?
Time and again my cards are bringing me back to a place of steadiness. It’s only been a month. So much has been felt, thought, planned, pulled apart and stuck back together. These cards remind me that these are early days.
More photos, not so many words, as I settle in to life on Skye.
A simple spread to look at what you need, what the situation needs, and how to move forwards - plus my own personal reading.
Polar opposites of calm and chaos, of tranquility and stress, nature and junk, all part of the experience of settling in to a new life in a communal space and working towards balance and harmony.
We've said goodbye our old life and finally arrived in Skye. I don't have the words to describe how this all feels yet... so here's a short photo-diary of our move.
Seven of Pentacles, The Lovers.
And like that, I felt de-stressed, and like I knew, once more, what to make of the present moment.
Change is afoot. My brain is tired, my body is stiff, my heart is happy and filled with anticipation.
I just had to share some photos of a walk I took today with Sandy and Alison, to the Fairy Pools near Glenbrittle, Skye. It was a magical place.
What Skye time is teaching me is to look and to listen. To let the land speak to me and to work alongside it. And that just as much is ‘crammed’ into an hour spent watching winter sunlight light change through birch trees as an hour spent ‘productively’.
Two cards - the Wheel for the inevitability of change, Steadfastness for finding an anchor, a place from which to observe.